Hmmmm….Already May 4, 2009, unbelievable! I’ve been in my apartment for little over a week, and I LOVE IT! Moving day was …well it was a mess. The Uhaul place didn’t have the truck I reserved, so instead of a 17’ truck I got a 10’ and I had to make 2 trips. Needless to say, I didn’t pay for the extra miles, when I explained as to what happened.
I was very blessed, the guys from my Tooele ward, came back 2x to help me move all the stuff from the storage unit into the truck. And the guys from my new ward, came back 2x as well to help me move it all in the house. They even took the time to hook up my washer and dryer, set up my bed, arrange my furniture to how I wanted it, put together my futon and made sure I was ok before they left. What a blessing!
I had the whole house unpacked and decorated by 10:05 Sunday night. (I know, I wasn’t supposed to, I have no excuse except that I can’t live around boxes if I need to function)
The Relief Society President stopped by and gave me a welcome gift. I went to Church on Sunday and sat with the Relief Society President and her Husband, they were most kind.
Tuesday the Elders Coram President (who is the son of the Relief Society President) and his 2nd Counselor and my Home Teacher (who I went to High School with ) all stopped by to see if I needed any help. They were so shocked to see I had it all done. They said they were just teasing me when they told me I needed to have it all done in 2 days. I laughed.
I really feel that this is where I’m supposed to be. I got to watch Twilight last night YAY..In MY House, on MY TV, on MY Couch..hahaha..I loved it!
I’m healing nicely, still a little on the tender/crampy side, but the doctor said that was normal with the pulling and trauma I went through, but he is pleased with my progress. Now it is up to me to start healing and becoming as healthy as I can in anticipation for the Transplant. I feel very blessed to have such wonderful friends and family. I love you all!
Monday, May 4, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
YAY
So…can I just say how so very excited I am for this weekend????? I’ve found me a cute little place to move, it’s in Magna..yes…Magna. I never thought I’d end back up there, but I’m moving to a cute little duplex on Saturday. I will be close to my Aunt Heidi and Uncle Don which will be nice, I can visit more often I am also sooooooooo way excited about having my stuff back. I know, it’s just stuff, just material belongings, but I’ve missed them, I want to have my own space, my own comforts. I want to re-read all my Twilight books again, from my chair, watch Twilight from my TV, you know..just having my own space!
I prayed while I was looking, I was hoping to find a place out in Tooele, but I prayed to be placed where I needed to be, where not only I’d be able to afford living, but where I would be the most use to Heavenly Father, and for my own growth. Who knew that would be Magna??
I’m so thankful for my prayers being answered. I’m thankful for the prayers of my friends and family through all I’ve been through this last while, and the continued prayers for all I will go through.
My Faith is strengthened for that. I’m excited for my “New” beginning and can’t wait until this weekend!! Whooohooooooo
I prayed while I was looking, I was hoping to find a place out in Tooele, but I prayed to be placed where I needed to be, where not only I’d be able to afford living, but where I would be the most use to Heavenly Father, and for my own growth. Who knew that would be Magna??
I’m so thankful for my prayers being answered. I’m thankful for the prayers of my friends and family through all I’ve been through this last while, and the continued prayers for all I will go through.
My Faith is strengthened for that. I’m excited for my “New” beginning and can’t wait until this weekend!! Whooohooooooo
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
It's Really April..but the song was in my head!
May…It’s May, the lovely month of may… (I know, the song says lusty…but I thought it would sound better as lovely)
Well, March 18, 2009 I had a total Hysterectomy, including my ovaries and most of my cervix. The doctor was able to do it by scope, but he had a really hard time. At first, the top layer that was rushed to pathology, was non cancerous. However, after the whole thing went to pathology, it was found to have Stage 1 endometrial cancer and it was about the size of a quarter, but the surrounding growing portion was the size of a softball. The doctor said that if I had waited even a month, it would have been too late, it wouldn’t have been contained, and there my chance would have gone out the window, not only for a Liver Transplant, but I may not have been able to do Chemo or Radiation because of the liver.
So, thankfully, they were able to get it all, and I was able to avoid all of that.
I’m truly grateful for the Holy Ghost who never gave up on his promptings for me to get in there.
I’ll write more later…
Well, March 18, 2009 I had a total Hysterectomy, including my ovaries and most of my cervix. The doctor was able to do it by scope, but he had a really hard time. At first, the top layer that was rushed to pathology, was non cancerous. However, after the whole thing went to pathology, it was found to have Stage 1 endometrial cancer and it was about the size of a quarter, but the surrounding growing portion was the size of a softball. The doctor said that if I had waited even a month, it would have been too late, it wouldn’t have been contained, and there my chance would have gone out the window, not only for a Liver Transplant, but I may not have been able to do Chemo or Radiation because of the liver.
So, thankfully, they were able to get it all, and I was able to avoid all of that.
I’m truly grateful for the Holy Ghost who never gave up on his promptings for me to get in there.
I’ll write more later…
Thursday, March 5, 2009
*Insert Whitty Title Here*
Well, again, it’s been a while, but here’s the latest. First, I was very excited to visit with my cousin Elaine last month while she was here in good ole’ Utah visiting her family. It was so nice to see you Elaine…and your boys are so cute and BIG..wow they grow fast!
It was also nice to see Uncle Don and Aunt Heidi and catch up.
Work is work, and i’m grateful that I have a job, so even on the stressful days, I won’t complain (ok, not too much anyhow)
Things are good on the home front, Mom, Dad and Becky are all well. Ryan got his orders, he will be going to Whitman Air Force Base in Missouri, we’re sad that he won’t be home here in Utah, but at least Missouri is closer than England! He and the family will arrive in August for his assignment. We’re looking forward to a visit before they settle.
My callings are good, I have new kids and they’re great. I’m still adjusting to the Single Adult calling, and not liking it as much as I could I suppose, I’m just frustrated with the “older” ones, they don’t want to plan activities because “you young ones” like to “move” too much..ugh! I didn’t sign up for retirement babysitting!!!! We’re trying to persuade our Stake Presidency to splitting us like they do in Salt Lake 30-45 and 45-dead..haha (ok that’s bad but it’s sooo true)
I had my 6 month liver check up, and thus far, I’m doing well, still considered “stable” so that’s good. Not so good is that I went for my yearly check up with the OB/Gyn, and because of my long history of PCOS, I’ve not had a cycle in almost 2 years, but they can’t give me hormones because of my liver, so he did an ultrasound, and he’s afraid I could have cancer, he can’t be sure until the Uterus is removed, so I’m scheduled for a total hysterectomy on March 18th. I will know then if I’ve got cancer, I pray that I don’t for many reasons, it wouldn’t be fun, but I’d deal with it and head it face on. Second, if I have cancer, that takes me out of the running for a Liver Transplant, period. So, I’ll hope that I don’t and I will get through this. The one thing that is keeping me together in all of this (because I wanted more than anything in this world to be a mommy, to have my own babies and raise them) is my faith and my knowledge that Heavenly Father has promised me in my Patriartical Blessing that I will have children through my Eternal Marriage, and I know one day I’ll be blessed beyond measure.
I hope everyone is doing well. Know that this won’t get me, I will fight, but I also will do whatever the Lord has in his plans for me.
It was also nice to see Uncle Don and Aunt Heidi and catch up.
Work is work, and i’m grateful that I have a job, so even on the stressful days, I won’t complain (ok, not too much anyhow)
Things are good on the home front, Mom, Dad and Becky are all well. Ryan got his orders, he will be going to Whitman Air Force Base in Missouri, we’re sad that he won’t be home here in Utah, but at least Missouri is closer than England! He and the family will arrive in August for his assignment. We’re looking forward to a visit before they settle.
My callings are good, I have new kids and they’re great. I’m still adjusting to the Single Adult calling, and not liking it as much as I could I suppose, I’m just frustrated with the “older” ones, they don’t want to plan activities because “you young ones” like to “move” too much..ugh! I didn’t sign up for retirement babysitting!!!! We’re trying to persuade our Stake Presidency to splitting us like they do in Salt Lake 30-45 and 45-dead..haha (ok that’s bad but it’s sooo true)
I had my 6 month liver check up, and thus far, I’m doing well, still considered “stable” so that’s good. Not so good is that I went for my yearly check up with the OB/Gyn, and because of my long history of PCOS, I’ve not had a cycle in almost 2 years, but they can’t give me hormones because of my liver, so he did an ultrasound, and he’s afraid I could have cancer, he can’t be sure until the Uterus is removed, so I’m scheduled for a total hysterectomy on March 18th. I will know then if I’ve got cancer, I pray that I don’t for many reasons, it wouldn’t be fun, but I’d deal with it and head it face on. Second, if I have cancer, that takes me out of the running for a Liver Transplant, period. So, I’ll hope that I don’t and I will get through this. The one thing that is keeping me together in all of this (because I wanted more than anything in this world to be a mommy, to have my own babies and raise them) is my faith and my knowledge that Heavenly Father has promised me in my Patriartical Blessing that I will have children through my Eternal Marriage, and I know one day I’ll be blessed beyond measure.
I hope everyone is doing well. Know that this won’t get me, I will fight, but I also will do whatever the Lord has in his plans for me.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Hmmm....What in the world happened to the past few months?
Hmmm...today, I realized is February 6th, 5 months ago, I received my own Endowment, I've gone to the Temple almost 1x a week for those last 5 months, there were the few exceptions I went 2x a week, and there were 2 weeks I was very ill, and didn't go, and that really was crazy how it changed my whole week.
What happened to the time? I know they say as you get older, time seems to go by faster, but geez...is it necessary to fly away like this? It's not necessarily a bad thing, it's good, it makes it closer to the Second Coming, time to be at Peace. I know for myself, it makes me stop and think about what I'm doing now, what i'm not doing, what I need to be doing, what I want to be doing.
My health has been ok, I've gotten Bronchitis 2x since December, and this last time was really bad, I'm still trying to kick it, but it doesn't help that I can't take anything for it. Work is good, at least I still have a job, though somedays I wish I were else where, I'm very grateful that I'm employed and that I have wonderful co-workers who make it bearable.
In December, I went and saw the movie Twilight, I hadn't anticipated liking it so much, in fact, I was surprised how I became such a fan. (I've always loved Vampires and Werewolves) but, I went to the movie, after it was done, I went straight across the road to Walmart and bought the book. I started it that night, the next day, I went back to Walmart and bought New Moon. I had the first book done in 2 days and on my way through New Moon, I had asked my Mom for Christmas to get me Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. Well, I asked her 2 days later if she'd bought me the books, she hadn't because she couldn't find them. I told her never mind, because I couldn't wait the 2 weeks until Christmas..haha, so I went to Walmart, and found them!!! YAY, So, I had all 4 books read in 2 weeks, but I was devistated when they ended, I loved them , I was caught up in it all. Yes, I'm a Romantic, I loved the story..all 4 books, I really enjoyed, I loved the chemistry between Edward and Bella, my mom saw the movie and then understood why I loved it all, it's so like me she said...haha. I surprised myself, my family and friends in liking them so much. I felt silly, but I enjoyed liking something so much. I've re-read the books, all 4 again, and have read the Midnight Sun online. I've seen Twilight 8 times, and have it on pre order..geesh..haha. I have decided what some of my fascination is, and that is, even though they are "Vampires" and there are no such thing in real life, they are an Eternal Family, they deal with day to day struggles, against the "norm" or the "world" as we as Latter Day Saints do, but they have each other for support and love. They stand together no matter what and try to do the right thing. I know some feel that my thoughts are a far reach, but it's how I feel. I absolutely love the series, and can't wait until New Moon comes out.
I have read The Host, it was interesting, if you can make it through the first 162 pages, then it gets good.
Wow...lots of rambling, not a whole lot of excitement. I am looking forward to this year, I'm hoping that Ryan and Pam will be able to move to Utah. I pray that everyone stays healthy and happy.
What happened to the time? I know they say as you get older, time seems to go by faster, but geez...is it necessary to fly away like this? It's not necessarily a bad thing, it's good, it makes it closer to the Second Coming, time to be at Peace. I know for myself, it makes me stop and think about what I'm doing now, what i'm not doing, what I need to be doing, what I want to be doing.
My health has been ok, I've gotten Bronchitis 2x since December, and this last time was really bad, I'm still trying to kick it, but it doesn't help that I can't take anything for it. Work is good, at least I still have a job, though somedays I wish I were else where, I'm very grateful that I'm employed and that I have wonderful co-workers who make it bearable.
In December, I went and saw the movie Twilight, I hadn't anticipated liking it so much, in fact, I was surprised how I became such a fan. (I've always loved Vampires and Werewolves) but, I went to the movie, after it was done, I went straight across the road to Walmart and bought the book. I started it that night, the next day, I went back to Walmart and bought New Moon. I had the first book done in 2 days and on my way through New Moon, I had asked my Mom for Christmas to get me Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. Well, I asked her 2 days later if she'd bought me the books, she hadn't because she couldn't find them. I told her never mind, because I couldn't wait the 2 weeks until Christmas..haha, so I went to Walmart, and found them!!! YAY, So, I had all 4 books read in 2 weeks, but I was devistated when they ended, I loved them , I was caught up in it all. Yes, I'm a Romantic, I loved the story..all 4 books, I really enjoyed, I loved the chemistry between Edward and Bella, my mom saw the movie and then understood why I loved it all, it's so like me she said...haha. I surprised myself, my family and friends in liking them so much. I felt silly, but I enjoyed liking something so much. I've re-read the books, all 4 again, and have read the Midnight Sun online. I've seen Twilight 8 times, and have it on pre order..geesh..haha. I have decided what some of my fascination is, and that is, even though they are "Vampires" and there are no such thing in real life, they are an Eternal Family, they deal with day to day struggles, against the "norm" or the "world" as we as Latter Day Saints do, but they have each other for support and love. They stand together no matter what and try to do the right thing. I know some feel that my thoughts are a far reach, but it's how I feel. I absolutely love the series, and can't wait until New Moon comes out.
I have read The Host, it was interesting, if you can make it through the first 162 pages, then it gets good.
Wow...lots of rambling, not a whole lot of excitement. I am looking forward to this year, I'm hoping that Ryan and Pam will be able to move to Utah. I pray that everyone stays healthy and happy.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Heavenly Father's sense of humor makes us more like him than we realize
Oh yes..that's right..hehe. Our Father in Heaven definitely has a sense of humor (we all know this) however, even in the Temple.
This is why I think such, yesterday Nov 4th I went to the Salt Lake Temple, like I do every Tuesday, and I decided that I would do Baptisms, I haven't done them in over 10 years, and I thought it would be a great thing to do, as I'm so blessed to do the other work.
I went in and there was a very large group of Mutual age young people (don't call them kids, they get offended..hehe) and I had the slight thought of going and doing initatories instead. Alas...I stayed, I got my clothing and changed, as I was alone, the Brethren decided they'd have me go first, I was fine either way. So, I go into the room to do the Confirmations, and as I sit, the zipper unraveled...yes...came apart, not ripped, unsewed itself...I shot straight up, they said..sister are you ok? My face was sooo Red, and I said, yes and no, I uhm need to go..they smiled and showed me out, I went and got a new suite and was so embarrassed, but the Sisters are so great and made me feel better (as best as I could I was still mortified) I put on the other one, and it was the wrong size, so there I was in the dilemma again, so another sister went and got me a few other ones to try. Finaly, with the right size, and my face turning back to the normal color, I went back out. Well, by that time, the entire group was out waiting for Confirmations, so I waited and that was fine with me because there is no better place in the world to have to "wait" then the Temple. I looked down, and I had forgot my key, so I again, had to get up and leave. I came back down and waited again.
I then did 10 Confirmations, and was informed that there was another very large group coming in, and they'd like to have me go with the other group and be in front for Baptisms.
I felt really bad "cutting" in front of them, but as I sat by some Young Women, I felt very blessed to be in their presence and I know that they are wonderful Daughters of God. I told them that I hadn't been there in a long time, as I sat there waiting, the one girl said..oh, you can go up to that chair now, and you can put your socks in the basket, it was so very sweet.
Even with the embarrassment I felt, I didn't get upset or frustrated like I may have in the world, I found it funny (after I was embarrassed).
Our Heavenly Father is a wonderful and wise man, he also is like us more than we know, he has a sense of humor, he hurts, he loves he cares..we need to remember that we are indeed not alone, and for that I am Thankful.
This is why I think such, yesterday Nov 4th I went to the Salt Lake Temple, like I do every Tuesday, and I decided that I would do Baptisms, I haven't done them in over 10 years, and I thought it would be a great thing to do, as I'm so blessed to do the other work.
I went in and there was a very large group of Mutual age young people (don't call them kids, they get offended..hehe) and I had the slight thought of going and doing initatories instead. Alas...I stayed, I got my clothing and changed, as I was alone, the Brethren decided they'd have me go first, I was fine either way. So, I go into the room to do the Confirmations, and as I sit, the zipper unraveled...yes...came apart, not ripped, unsewed itself...I shot straight up, they said..sister are you ok? My face was sooo Red, and I said, yes and no, I uhm need to go..they smiled and showed me out, I went and got a new suite and was so embarrassed, but the Sisters are so great and made me feel better (as best as I could I was still mortified) I put on the other one, and it was the wrong size, so there I was in the dilemma again, so another sister went and got me a few other ones to try. Finaly, with the right size, and my face turning back to the normal color, I went back out. Well, by that time, the entire group was out waiting for Confirmations, so I waited and that was fine with me because there is no better place in the world to have to "wait" then the Temple. I looked down, and I had forgot my key, so I again, had to get up and leave. I came back down and waited again.
I then did 10 Confirmations, and was informed that there was another very large group coming in, and they'd like to have me go with the other group and be in front for Baptisms.
I felt really bad "cutting" in front of them, but as I sat by some Young Women, I felt very blessed to be in their presence and I know that they are wonderful Daughters of God. I told them that I hadn't been there in a long time, as I sat there waiting, the one girl said..oh, you can go up to that chair now, and you can put your socks in the basket, it was so very sweet.
Even with the embarrassment I felt, I didn't get upset or frustrated like I may have in the world, I found it funny (after I was embarrassed).
Our Heavenly Father is a wonderful and wise man, he also is like us more than we know, he has a sense of humor, he hurts, he loves he cares..we need to remember that we are indeed not alone, and for that I am Thankful.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Manti Temple
I was privlaged to go to the Manti Temple today to see my Mom's Sister Ruthann and her Husband Carl be Sealed and what a blessing it was!
We attended a Session first followed by the Sealing. I imediatly felt the presence of my Grandma and Grampa Gibson, I couldn't stop the tears from flowing the minute I sat in the Chapel. It was such a Spiritualy wonderful day.
I told my parents that I had always wanted to be married in the Salt Lake Temple, because it was my favorite (Still is) however, now that I've been to the Jordan River, Bountiful and Manti, I'm having a hard time on where I want to be married...sooooo...I decided it's going to be up to my future husband! Hahaha...yep, he's got to decide where..hmm...maybe we'll go to the Rome Temple :) Well, I know this was short, but I wanted to share it.
We attended a Session first followed by the Sealing. I imediatly felt the presence of my Grandma and Grampa Gibson, I couldn't stop the tears from flowing the minute I sat in the Chapel. It was such a Spiritualy wonderful day.
I told my parents that I had always wanted to be married in the Salt Lake Temple, because it was my favorite (Still is) however, now that I've been to the Jordan River, Bountiful and Manti, I'm having a hard time on where I want to be married...sooooo...I decided it's going to be up to my future husband! Hahaha...yep, he's got to decide where..hmm...maybe we'll go to the Rome Temple :) Well, I know this was short, but I wanted to share it.
Friday, October 3, 2008
Update
October 3, 2008
Well I told you that I’m not very good at the whole blogging deal. Last time I wrote was 2 days before I went to the Temple, and that was September 4, 2008 and here it is a month later!
On September 6, 2008 I went through the Jordan River Temple for my own Endowment and that was the most special and exciting day of my life thus far! It was beautiful, spiritual and right.
I will write more about my experience a little later when I have more time.
I’ve been going to the Temple once a week at least. The first time back was that next Thursday with my Mom, we did a session at Jordan River. I’ve been going every Tuesday to the Salt Lake Temple, which is in our District..and I’ve done Inititories and a Sealing Session…can you say AWESOME!!!
I’m loving it, and it’s just part of my week. I know that this will help me when times get rough, Its already helped me handle my week better.
I’ll write more later….ta ta for now!
Well I told you that I’m not very good at the whole blogging deal. Last time I wrote was 2 days before I went to the Temple, and that was September 4, 2008 and here it is a month later!
On September 6, 2008 I went through the Jordan River Temple for my own Endowment and that was the most special and exciting day of my life thus far! It was beautiful, spiritual and right.
I will write more about my experience a little later when I have more time.
I’ve been going to the Temple once a week at least. The first time back was that next Thursday with my Mom, we did a session at Jordan River. I’ve been going every Tuesday to the Salt Lake Temple, which is in our District..and I’ve done Inititories and a Sealing Session…can you say AWESOME!!!
I’m loving it, and it’s just part of my week. I know that this will help me when times get rough, Its already helped me handle my week better.
I’ll write more later….ta ta for now!
Thursday, September 4, 2008
2 Days and Counting
Wow…this week has gone by fast! I’m very grateful for it. On Saturday I get to go to the Jordan River Temple and take my own Endowments out, and I’m thankful for the chance. Some of my family and friends will be there with me and that makes me very happy. I wish my Brother Ryan and Sister in Law Pam could be there with me, but they’re way over in England, and I know they’ll be with me in my heart.
The past few weeks have been challenging, and I knew they very well may be, because Satan really likes to get to you when you’re doing the right thing, and boy…he’s a Meany, but I’ve not let him deter me, because I know what I’m doing is the best thing in my life at this point, and hopefully one day, I’ll find a worthy man to marry me in the Temple.
I’ve learned a lot this past month about myself, about my Testimony and my love for my Savior and Heavenly Father, and I can’t wait to be able to see them again one day. I am so grateful to my Savior for coming to this earth and making it possible for me to return home again one day. I am also so very grateful for Joseph Smith, and for him seeking out the true church and being heedful to the promptings, and bringing forth the restored gospel. I am looking forward to personally thanking him one day. I’m grateful for the opportunity to have my primary class the CTR8 kids and helping them learn the scriptures, as well as me learning with them. I also am thankful (I think..hehe, just kidding I am) for my Single Adult calling, it’s going to be very challenging and very interesting, and I hope that I will be able to make a difference.
Well, that’s all really for now.
The past few weeks have been challenging, and I knew they very well may be, because Satan really likes to get to you when you’re doing the right thing, and boy…he’s a Meany, but I’ve not let him deter me, because I know what I’m doing is the best thing in my life at this point, and hopefully one day, I’ll find a worthy man to marry me in the Temple.
I’ve learned a lot this past month about myself, about my Testimony and my love for my Savior and Heavenly Father, and I can’t wait to be able to see them again one day. I am so grateful to my Savior for coming to this earth and making it possible for me to return home again one day. I am also so very grateful for Joseph Smith, and for him seeking out the true church and being heedful to the promptings, and bringing forth the restored gospel. I am looking forward to personally thanking him one day. I’m grateful for the opportunity to have my primary class the CTR8 kids and helping them learn the scriptures, as well as me learning with them. I also am thankful (I think..hehe, just kidding I am) for my Single Adult calling, it’s going to be very challenging and very interesting, and I hope that I will be able to make a difference.
Well, that’s all really for now.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Life the last year
So where do I even begin?? Ok, we'll start with 2007, that will make the most sense. I was married for 5.5 years, and the end of 2006 is when life started to really take a turn that I wasn't enjoying. My ex had gotten home from an 18 month tour in Iraq, and we had a great 6 weeks after he got home, and then he started acting like he had before he went. We had our issues like most married people, but no matter how I tried everything was my fault, (including the weather and traffic). So in 2007 I had gotten sick, I had gotten some very weird cysts that would get really infected, I didn't have insurance because I was working a temp. job at the time, and my ex was working a security job that didn't pay well nor did it have insurance. So....in March I started at my current employer, Apria Healthcare, I had worked for them 10 years ago when they had their infusion department and was laid off when it closed..anyhow...so I started on March 1st and on March 14th we flew to Florida to see my ex's parents (name witheld for privacy..why..uhm I don't know, but it seems fair) anyway...lol, before we went, I got another on of my cysts, I called the doctor for some antibiotics and he gave me some, we went to Florida, and I continued to get sicker and sicker, but I couldn't say anything because he'd get mad, so I kept quiet, and finaly on the plane ride home, I told him that I was really, really sick and needed to go to the hospital. We drove home and let our animals out, he then took me to the hospital, pulled up to the ER door and said "get out of my car" and left me there, alone, sick and worried. As soon as I walked in they took me back, the nurse couldn't get a temperature, it was too high. The doctor came in and saw my "wound" area and got irritated asked me if I realized that I could die from this infection? I just looked at him, how do you explain that you didn't go because you'd get in trouble? He told me I was being admitted to the hospital, they stared an IV and my temp registered at 104.3. I was in the hospital for 2 weeks and had a total of 4 surgeries, I almost died and I just got yelled at by my ex. I ended up being out of work for 3 months, and it was horrible. Finally when I went back to work, my ex was even more mean, and the final straw was when I was fixing my portion of a "pot luck" lunch and was chopping onions, he picked up the knife and said "I should just kill you now" on the outside I remained calm and rolled my eyes told him to do what he felt he needed to, on the inside I was terrified, I thought, wow...he really hates me. So, I filed for divorce and put a protective order on him. (yeah I know, long story..but this isn't even 1/3 of it, i'm trying to keep it short..hehe) Needless to say I won bot the Divorce and the protective order. He has violated the protective order at least a dozen times, he never showed for court for the divorce, so I won that on default. I ended up losing the house we bought, even though I won it, because he hadn't paid any bills while I was sick. So, I thought that was the end of it..the worst, uhm no...I was sick again this year, ended up needing to have my gallbladder out, and in the process found out that I have stage 3 of 4 Liver Cihrrosis, yeah I know!!! Liver Cihrrosis??? What the heck??? I don't drink, I don't do drugs, I don't anything..I'm 33 years old..I'm a baby! they did a biopsy and sure enough that's what it came out as...so going to the specialist, tons of tests later..I will need to have a Liver Transplant sometime within the next 5 years. They won't put me on the "list" just yet as my levels are still "functional" I get to wait until I'm yellow...yay.
Now, I know...that's a lot to digest and it seems like it is all horrible, but....there is good news...I have a GREAT Family who love and support me, I have wonderful friends, I found my way back to church, I'm taking my own Endowment out in September ....ME..going to the Temple...ME..I'm sooooo excited I can't hardly stand it! And...I'm now a Primary Teacher for the CTR 8 class...AND...the Single Adult Rep for our Ward in our Stake....PHEW....so..I feel very blessed, very loved and I know that all will be well. Whatever Heavenly Father has in store for me, I will do, I will overcome, I will learn, I will grow and I'll be greatful for the chance.
So, Thank you for reading, thank you to my friends and family, I love you all!!!
Now, I know...that's a lot to digest and it seems like it is all horrible, but....there is good news...I have a GREAT Family who love and support me, I have wonderful friends, I found my way back to church, I'm taking my own Endowment out in September ....ME..going to the Temple...ME..I'm sooooo excited I can't hardly stand it! And...I'm now a Primary Teacher for the CTR 8 class...AND...the Single Adult Rep for our Ward in our Stake....PHEW....so..I feel very blessed, very loved and I know that all will be well. Whatever Heavenly Father has in store for me, I will do, I will overcome, I will learn, I will grow and I'll be greatful for the chance.
So, Thank you for reading, thank you to my friends and family, I love you all!!!
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