Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Life the last year

So where do I even begin?? Ok, we'll start with 2007, that will make the most sense. I was married for 5.5 years, and the end of 2006 is when life started to really take a turn that I wasn't enjoying. My ex had gotten home from an 18 month tour in Iraq, and we had a great 6 weeks after he got home, and then he started acting like he had before he went. We had our issues like most married people, but no matter how I tried everything was my fault, (including the weather and traffic). So in 2007 I had gotten sick, I had gotten some very weird cysts that would get really infected, I didn't have insurance because I was working a temp. job at the time, and my ex was working a security job that didn't pay well nor did it have insurance. So....in March I started at my current employer, Apria Healthcare, I had worked for them 10 years ago when they had their infusion department and was laid off when it closed..anyhow...so I started on March 1st and on March 14th we flew to Florida to see my ex's parents (name witheld for privacy..why..uhm I don't know, but it seems fair) anyway...lol, before we went, I got another on of my cysts, I called the doctor for some antibiotics and he gave me some, we went to Florida, and I continued to get sicker and sicker, but I couldn't say anything because he'd get mad, so I kept quiet, and finaly on the plane ride home, I told him that I was really, really sick and needed to go to the hospital. We drove home and let our animals out, he then took me to the hospital, pulled up to the ER door and said "get out of my car" and left me there, alone, sick and worried. As soon as I walked in they took me back, the nurse couldn't get a temperature, it was too high. The doctor came in and saw my "wound" area and got irritated asked me if I realized that I could die from this infection? I just looked at him, how do you explain that you didn't go because you'd get in trouble? He told me I was being admitted to the hospital, they stared an IV and my temp registered at 104.3. I was in the hospital for 2 weeks and had a total of 4 surgeries, I almost died and I just got yelled at by my ex. I ended up being out of work for 3 months, and it was horrible. Finally when I went back to work, my ex was even more mean, and the final straw was when I was fixing my portion of a "pot luck" lunch and was chopping onions, he picked up the knife and said "I should just kill you now" on the outside I remained calm and rolled my eyes told him to do what he felt he needed to, on the inside I was terrified, I thought, wow...he really hates me. So, I filed for divorce and put a protective order on him. (yeah I know, long story..but this isn't even 1/3 of it, i'm trying to keep it short..hehe) Needless to say I won bot the Divorce and the protective order. He has violated the protective order at least a dozen times, he never showed for court for the divorce, so I won that on default. I ended up losing the house we bought, even though I won it, because he hadn't paid any bills while I was sick. So, I thought that was the end of it..the worst, uhm no...I was sick again this year, ended up needing to have my gallbladder out, and in the process found out that I have stage 3 of 4 Liver Cihrrosis, yeah I know!!! Liver Cihrrosis??? What the heck??? I don't drink, I don't do drugs, I don't anything..I'm 33 years old..I'm a baby! they did a biopsy and sure enough that's what it came out as...so going to the specialist, tons of tests later..I will need to have a Liver Transplant sometime within the next 5 years. They won't put me on the "list" just yet as my levels are still "functional" I get to wait until I'm yellow...yay.
Now, I know...that's a lot to digest and it seems like it is all horrible, but....there is good news...I have a GREAT Family who love and support me, I have wonderful friends, I found my way back to church, I'm taking my own Endowment out in September ....ME..going to the Temple...ME..I'm sooooo excited I can't hardly stand it! And...I'm now a Primary Teacher for the CTR 8 class...AND...the Single Adult Rep for our Ward in our Stake....PHEW....so..I feel very blessed, very loved and I know that all will be well. Whatever Heavenly Father has in store for me, I will do, I will overcome, I will learn, I will grow and I'll be greatful for the chance.
So, Thank you for reading, thank you to my friends and family, I love you all!!!

2 comments:

Leah and James Bangert Family said...

I love you Bonnie. You have been through and are going through, some amazing challenges/trials and I truly admire your faith, perspective and determination to fight the good fight. I love you.

Anonymous said...

Bonnie, you know I'm here for you. What "what's his name" did will come back on him. You have always been a strong and wonderful woman. Good things will come to you. I just know it. Just like I got when I finally made the move out here.
Lots of love to you, I miss talking to you. Dyonis